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Monday, June 29, 2009

I feel so mixed up right now. Its like the moment where you can't even describe how upset you are at the same time you want to laugh at the things that are happening around you. I even scolded someone when I was at the brink of that emotion, yesterday night. I am extremely broken with the current situation now.

I do not like divided islands that only grow smaller by the minute. Metaphorically speaking. I can't even mouth my words to describe how I feel cause I'm not sure. I just cried myself to sleep hoping things would be okay, tomorrow.

People always had this idea that I would not be the one to use profanities, not the one to be known to the things they get involved in. I'm always the goody-sorts. They shut me out of their life. They take me out of the square-root and place me out of the equation. I feel attached to nothing. I feel at lost. But somehow, I have this gut feeling of what is happening. I know the situation. I choose to not say it out loud for I feel it is not the matter that is of importance, it is the cause. Animosity against each other won't make the situation any better but it'll only hurt others in between.

I know this is the test from ALLAH. The test of my limits. The test of my faith. I do not know which path should I take, which ladder should I climb. All I can say, I've been thinking of life after death very much this few days. Not that I'm thinking to end my life but how much have I done to earn me my after life.


i appreciate what you did @ 9:49 PM