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Monday, June 29, 2009

I feel so mixed up right now. Its like the moment where you can't even describe how upset you are at the same time you want to laugh at the things that are happening around you. I even scolded someone when I was at the brink of that emotion, yesterday night. I am extremely broken with the current situation now.

I do not like divided islands that only grow smaller by the minute. Metaphorically speaking. I can't even mouth my words to describe how I feel cause I'm not sure. I just cried myself to sleep hoping things would be okay, tomorrow.

People always had this idea that I would not be the one to use profanities, not the one to be known to the things they get involved in. I'm always the goody-sorts. They shut me out of their life. They take me out of the square-root and place me out of the equation. I feel attached to nothing. I feel at lost. But somehow, I have this gut feeling of what is happening. I know the situation. I choose to not say it out loud for I feel it is not the matter that is of importance, it is the cause. Animosity against each other won't make the situation any better but it'll only hurt others in between.

I know this is the test from ALLAH. The test of my limits. The test of my faith. I do not know which path should I take, which ladder should I climb. All I can say, I've been thinking of life after death very much this few days. Not that I'm thinking to end my life but how much have I done to earn me my after life.


i appreciate what you did @ 9:49 PM

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

"Pengalaman seribu erti..."
- A thousand meaningful experience -

Part 5 is a must watch. What a twist to the story! Amazing!


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i appreciate what you did @ 7:38 PM


May non of them be missed....






I've got you on my list....yes...you!!!


i appreciate what you did @ 12:11 AM

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

I'll be your everything.
There is so much that I can say but I'll keep my words as minimal as possible. Accordingly, I would like to express my utmost gratitude for being so sweet. We can be so complicated that I sometimes don't even understand us. But, we made it through the rain, once again.
My fears are being to get the best of me. I'm beginning to slip a few times at work. I am worried for myself. Am I slowly going to be incompetent and will soon be obsolete like those items we've just condemned.
My boss was very nice to drop in today to check things out and deliver news to the office staff regarding the server shut-down. I admire him. He is such a responsible man.
I was lucky to catch the gate-keeper today. I'll be dead tomorrow morning if I didn't make it in time. I've only managed to complete power-on for one room. I need to go to five more rooms tomorrow morning. Die. I have such a tiring day at work today. Accompanying the network team for labelling, prepared at least ten computers for the lab, switching of the network items of six rooms, went back for lunch & went back to work walking & went out with mom + brother to pay bills.
I've enough of walking today. Alright, going to bath & perform facial on this infected face. Gotta run...


i appreciate what you did @ 6:39 AM

Friday, June 12, 2009

Apart from work, today, I feel like crap.



Its obvious I'm pissed at you.
Plans down the drain.
Well, its not always that you see them.


i appreciate what you did @ 8:14 AM

Saturday, June 6, 2009

I sense there's something in the wind
That feels like tragedy's at hand
And though I'd like to stand by him
Can't shake this feeling that I have
The worst is just around the bend

And does he notice my feelings for
him?
And will he see how much he means to me?
I think it's not to be

What will become of my dear friend?
Where will his actions lead us
then?
Although I'd like to join the crowd
In their enthusiastic cloud
Try as I may, it doesn't last

And will we ever end up together?
no, I think not, it's never to become
For I am not the one.


i appreciate what you did @ 6:05 PM