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Thursday, May 7, 2009

I just felt like I had to move out of that zone. The zone where a lot has happened. I will still leave it there. But, will be here from now on.

The reason for the change is, I seriously need one. I'm slowly trying to be a better person. To others and myself. Here, I will reveal my most HONEST feelings & DARKEST secrets that you may never think I've done. Facing the fact is the only way for me to learn.

Lies & deception have been hitting me hard all around. I found out that I too lie. A lot. Not every time. But sometimes. Sometimes we lie to not hurt others. Sometimes we lie to get our way. There is none in this world that has never lied. We lie to get what we want. We lie to get attention. I ever lied to get attention before. I ever lied to my parents so that I could go out with my boyfriend. We don't think we are wrong when we lie. We want to uphold our lie till forever. Ego will be bruised if people were to find out. People must never find out its a lie. In that impulsive act, we carry on and lie about.

I do not hate someone who lies to get attention or someone who lies because they are suffering from impulsive lying condition. In fact, I do not hate this people. I just feel sad. I feel sad because such a lie was created just to catch hold of a few moments of attention. I am on my own imperfect. I have done such things. I lie.

I haven't always been a good girl. I have erred much in my entire 21 going 22 years of life. I do not blame my fate. Neither do I blame circumstances. The only person to blame is myself. I know for the fact that when I lie, I'm actually creating a sin. I just can't stop. Eventually I felt good lying. Until, my lie got discovered. I'm in trouble. Now I'm alone again. All because I lied. I was impatient and I lied.

The only way to reproach myself is to actually have a moment of realisation of the error being done and recovering from it.

I wish to not lie anymore. It is not impossible but it will be a challenge. It will be something upbringing. I could actually feel and believe that I would never lie again.

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